upset

hmmm....U.P.S.E.T...that's is the thing that I feel right now...no matter how hard I try or I do all the house chores, yet,I still not being my mom favourites...it always either my sister or my 'adik' is the apple of the eyes of my mom..I can never be her favourites...I still remember when I was in primary school,,no matter how good my score is I never can satisfied her...but when comes to my kakak and adik everything is good...not a single comment at all...no matter either the result is not that good...but when they got good result,,they got appreciation from my mom..meanwhile,,I even getting a good result I never had the appreciation as long as I cant beat my friends and got first place in my class...and now,,,whenever I am doing the house chores,it never be as good as them as well..it not like I only know how to sleep and eat only while waiting for my result..I do all the house cleaning but i I am sorry mom if I cant be as good as them..but, I am trying mom...hopefully youwill know how to appreciate it instead being sarcasm..love you mom..

driving car

today is my first time driving car...ooooh,it is so fun but at the same time so scary...at the first my instructor asked me to play with gear and then when i quite good with it my instructor allow me to drive in circuit...30 minutes spent on circuit to make myself improve on it...later my instructor asked me to drive at the road...it was so nervous experience but at the same time was so fun... hopefully I will be a good driver soon...hu3

PRAYING HARD FOR S8 A'S

Dup dap dup dap...just if you can hear the sound of my heart beating now...it is really anxious when thinking either it will be all A'S or it will be just my dream...I really want all A'S for my spm as this will be mine ticket for becoming a doctor...a doctor is what my parents really want to see me..so,I need to fullfill tehir dream either by hook or crook...by now,as it getting closer to the day of SPM results will be announced,I just can hoping and praying that it will be okay...just like one of the line in the three idiots 'all is well'..but among all the 9 subjects that I am taking there are three subjects that i am so worry..and it will be english,bio n physics...hopefully this three will be A...insyaallah...if Allah will it I will get what I want all this while...

I MISS THIS TWO KIDS

hu3...it had been so long since the last time I meet with this two kids...it is my niece...the last time Isee them, the little one still cant crawl and the sister still not in school...now the little one already can crawl and look even cuter...and his sister already in school and even can play guitar now...how I miss them...they are my soul and my life...I was so thankful to have them in my life...and thanks to my brother and my sis in law too for bringing them into this world...their present really had cherish my world...their laugh, their joy, their behave will make me smile everytime thinking of them...hoping to see them soon...lots oflove and missing salma zara sofieya and zafar sharf waldan..your guys are aunty jie sweetheart...

B.O.R.E.D

It is already midnight but yet still cant get my eyes close...BORED...thinking of having chat but with who?...I dont really have many friends so it kind pity to my friends especially the one who close to me as I like to bother them...and the most one I like to have chat is 'THAT PERSON'...it so fun to have chat...at least I can talk with someone...ha3.,,perhaps they will get bored because i like to bother them..to all my friends especially izyan nazihah,najmi najihah and 'that person'. thanks a lot for having chat with me...he3...love you all..:)

JEALOUSY??

ooh...wake up in morning with smile on my face, but all of sudden all the smile were pull off from my face when I log in into my facebook account..what the thing that make me feeling bad all of sudden?...it is the picture of 'that person' with someone that he used to like before...ha3...jealous perhaps...they seem to be cute along and that girl much prettier and cuter than me, so it will nothing unusual if girl like her having many fans...maybe before this I say that I dont really care but the real is I do feel treaten a little bit...ha3...that what the power of jealous can do to human...but I am not that type of personthat like to control others....perhaps I should be more open minded and let what past be past...but as what shakspear say 'to forget somaone that we love is like to try the name of person that we never know'..so,for me I had to accept that the girl is his first love so it will be common thing if they being a good friend..so,I just need to go with the flow and put my trust to 'that person'..and I do know that I can believe him...

how I meet my special person

morning...suddenly today I think to share my special moment in my life on this blog...as you can see from the headline it about how I meet my special person in my life...and yes I have found the one that I love most..and how I know it is 'that person' that I have looking all this while...perhaps this is what I call destiny...ever since I met him when I was in form 3, I know immediately that it him that I looking all this while...but I never thinking of involve in this kind of matter as that time I still in school and my focus on that time was studying...on that time I just can say it not love yet but I want to be friends with that person...plus he seem nice and teachers always praise that person for having good attitude...and that what me more interesting to know him....and later somehow we get involved in gossips that created by our friends and later we getting closer...I mean before this we never dare to talk to each other at tuition, but later I dare enough to talk with hi...but at school I never dare enough to talk to 'that person' even to say hi because he soon to be quiet and vice versa with me...I worry to talk with him as I afraid that he will think what this girl doing?...ha3..as later time passed on I find out that he is moving to another school after getting pmr result...at that time I knew that we will not meet again as now we in different school...but somehow I meet him again at library...he was doing his homework at there and it kind surprisng me as before this I used to go there,,,but never see him around...and it kind make me feel happy to meet 'that person again' but even I dont know why...but I never go near him and chat with him as I afraid what he he will think of me...until one day he come to my table and have chat with me...happy but dont know why I feel that way...and how it can become like now...I mean he become someone special to me...just wait for another post... P/S:for the special person that read my post I want you to know that having you in my life is a bless..:)

time to be little thinnner??

ha3.....seem to be funny is not?...all of sudden thinking of trying to be a little bit thinner..not because of thinking to look gorgeous or beautiful, but I think it is the time to take care my health...I need to take care my own health if I want to take care my family especially my mom and dad...I already promise to myself to be a doctor one day so that later when i graduated I can work near to my parents house....so that went they getting old and unable to take care themself I will be able to look after them and treat them as they treat me since I was a baby and now become this big...hopefully..but before all of that become a reality I need to take care myself firstly...for this moment try to reduce the intake of rice...and exercise just start since end month of 12,,but seem nothing changes...perhaps need time to loose some weight...hopefully I will be able to do it...as well hoping my dream to become a doctor will be achieved

.....salma zara sofieya..that is my little niece...she is our princess and my sweetheart..now she already 7 years old and yes...she is going to school this year..she is a joyful girl and smart..we can never say no to her...we love her so much and I hope mt little sofieya will grow up as a good person...love you sofieya